Nicholas

Wow! I had just played pool with my army best buddy ,STEVE, and i really enjoy the moment of playing pool.It is not the wining nor losing that make me addicted to the game, even though i win him,… it is the music they played at K-Pool, the environment, my friend who can chit chat/ talking cock with me, make me felt so relax and nice…. Playing pool make me focus on the ball and it becoming one of my methods to destress.. That`s the reason i support playing pool to the others man!

Yesterday just play pool with my buddy zhimin… ha I won man.. 8-3.. the feeling is great and i enjoy the game.I enjoy the air-con, the music in K-pool and the chatting while we are playing… it made us relax and that type of relaxation is the best i can spend in my one and only pathetic weekend`s book out.

But when i think of booking in today, my morale drop to bottom, why i need to go back? hiaz… start to feel sick of army man! Life in there always give me a mix feeling! A feeling of grown up….. A feeling of reality in the whole new world ahead…… there no turning back… and if there is really a chance to go back to the past……given that choice… i betted most of us will like to go back…

People are getting mean, cunning and selfish but of course there are also some kind soul who will give u a hand when u need them… I respect these good soul and i am inspire to be like them..

HaHa! dun know why… everytime when come to typing down new blogs.. i always sound so down and low… sound pathetic and pessimistic but in fact my luck is not as bad.. so dun have a wrong impression of me.. I am happy…. 

Is single really good?

Sometime i asked myself.. why i am single, am i a bad guy or i do not have the good quality of been a good BF or wat bad point do i have that keep hindering me, is it i am short or my appearance not good enough?…why i haven met any of the girl that can touched my heart? These thoughts actually exist in me for quite sometime… until i finally accept it and realise.. There is always something in the world that cannot be rush or hurried… I think the god is now testing me and want me be to realise how important and precious are relationship is…

To me …a relationship  is special, and need both party to be committed and give in.. it cannot be forced, it is sweet in nature but bitter on the other side( but only u taste the bitter then u will realise it`s sweetness)…. it is fate that put u two together… alot of the couple face problem like… no personal freedom, no time.. the relationship is getting bored and is dull, no more fun and excitment, jealously , no trust, argument., can`t stand those ridiculous acts or selfishness… therefore they intent to break themselves free and want to have a break and so as to stop that… and to look for peace and sometime ,new excitment or fun = NEW LOVE……but my advice is pls dun give up easily… u all just need a rest… just let both party have more freedom.. a rest… a chance to recharge….some  peace… it`s prefectly normal… it doesn`t mean u two dun like each other… it is just that u two are tired.. try eating the same dish from morning till night.. can u stand it? so have a rest in between.. then u will realise that it`s not bad afterall..then u will treasure it more.. and u will not give urself a chance to regret in future… as u have try ur best and make urself cool down and look at urself from the other side of view.. u will realise more?

It`s strange… but it`s work… have more trust and believe in each other.. u no need to see each other everyday..remember a nick of quality moment is always better than…………blar blar blar

haha dun know how i link my single to these type of beliefs… am i rite? or it`s true that my belief is wrong? hope that someone can change my think then?

Admit one`s mistake and make an effort to amend it is a very brave and nicest thing u can do… it`s no point making more lies to cover up the mistake… it only make the matter worst…. it take me a long time to realise that.. it is always easier to say then to be done… but i feel that if u really make an effort to amend it… it can still be done… and i think i will always remember these in my heart…

Sometime i wonder how powerful a simple smile can be till i really put it in use.I realise that no matter who u dealing with, as long as they are human… a smile can break the ice and build up a better relationship and make u more approachable and better.So why dun make other ppl live better and be happlier a lil? Isn`t been happy is the best thing in life? how great it will be if everyone really put themselves in other ppl shoes and treat everyone like their own brother and sister, father and mother…. if everyone just put in more effort in that… i think everyone will be happy… as i believe.. Been happy is the best part of lifes… but alot of them had mistaken happyiness..they tend to mix up different formulars with happiness….but at the end… they will realise that happilness is getting further and more complicated.

happyiness is simple,

as long as u

appreciate wat u have now,

care more for others,

Just dun push too much….

WHY be so mean to urself..

Ha this blog sound holy or noble rite… haha.. just dun know why i type this stuff… it just come to my mind… maybe that`s my way of living then….

As i grow… i experience lots of stuff… things are changing, everything including ppl are changing at the same time… u getting smarter and at the same time.. getting less innocent and pure.. those basic principle of life like caring and helping each other selflessly is gone and this send me a chilling disappointment.

Now, i am serving Ns in tekong… taking a group or recruits, it`s a challenge to train them well and at the same time mix well with them…i must know them well and know their goods and bad.i enjoy doing that… but the pressure of working under my superior sometime really make me feel down… especially when they practice that new bird must suffer first… then relax… i resist to  this type of practice… why can`t we treat everyone equally? even when i am a old bird…. btw…i don`t mind working hard…. or do extra…. but as long as it is fair… ha that`s my principle or life…

Time is another thing i am lack of… i can only be able to book out once a week … and i find that i really do not have enough time for myself.  For those who knoe me long enough… they will know that i tend to be more quiet nowadays… i do not know the reasons.. but i just feel like being alone..i seldom call up my friends( which i feel bad abt it) sorry guys!.. i think i need to do some self reflections…i think i change quite alot…don`t know is it a positive or a neg….. but sometime i feel lost… sound sad rite? but actually its ok la… not as bad as u think….but maybe there are some setback that cause me to feel this way… i am just getting more numb to certain stuff… and accept the real life.. Complicated rite? haha but i think i really grow up liao..